doaku buatmu :)

Sekiranya dia jodohku, berikanlah petunjukMu dan peliharalah hubungan kami semoga sentiasa memperolehi keredhaanMu, jauhkanlah hubungan kami dari perkara² maksiat. namun sekiranya dia bukan jodohku, berikanlah juga petunjukmu, dan jauhkanlah dia dariku dengan cara yang baik dan menyenangkan hati kami masing², jauhilah kami dari kekecewaan dan kelukaan yang melampau hanya disebabkan kami tiada jodoh kerana kami yakin dan percaya, Kau sentiasa memberikan yang terbaik untuk hambaMu ya Allah..amin..

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan 
Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku 
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku 
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan 

Ya Allah, ku mohon 
Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan 
Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku 
Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku 
Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu 

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah 
Beri kekuatan jua harapan 
Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya 
Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa 

Ku pasrah kepadaMu 
Kurniakanlah aku 
Pasangan yang beriman 
Bisa menemani aku 
Supaya ku dan dia 
Dapat melayar bahtera 
Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai 

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih 
Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku 
Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini 
Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri 

Agarku bisa bahagia 
Walau tanpa bersamanya 
Gantikanlah yang hilang 
Tumbuhkan yang telah patah 
Ku inginkan bahagia 
Di dunia dan akhirat 
PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala

p/s : doa seorang kekasih :')

doa taubat :)

salamullah !

alhamdulillah ! setelah sekian lama men 'tyring' untuk mengubah lagu kat blog niy .. akhirnya dapat jgk ditukar..

yeayy ! :D

p/s : islamik tapi indah untuk dihayati :)

peribadi Baginda !

salamullah :)

sebagai muslim .. semua wajib pegi solat jumaat berjemaahkan ? soo .. hari niy nk share laa ckit ngn apa yg aku dapat masa pegi dengar khutbah jumaat tadi :)

Rasulullah ! banyak kebaikan dari segi akhlak dan amalan beliau yg dapat kita terapkan dlm kehidupan seharian kita .. sebagaimana jgk yg aku dengar dlm khutbah tadi .. bagaimana baginda sentiasa beramal soleh dan melakukan segala urusannya dengan mengecapi keredhaan drp Allah SWT ! 

Dan nabi, kalau dia berkawan, sebaik-baik kawan,
Kalau dia dirumah, sebaik-baik bapa,
Kalau dia bersama isteri, sebaik-baik suami,
Kalau dia memimpin, sebaik-baik pemimpin,

tapi .. cuba kita renungkan dan kita imbas kembali akan segala amalan dan kebaikan yg pernah kita lakukan .. cukup dan mampukah kita untuk di panggil sebagai khalifah di muka bumi Allah ini .. byk persoalan yg akan timbul bukan ? jadi .. marilah kita muhasabah dan berdoa agar kita dikurniakan hati dan jiwa yg tenang agar mendapat rahmat dari Nya ...

sedikit perkongsian akan bagaimana baginda dan para sahabat berusaha untuk menyebarkan islam !

p/s : berusaha ke arah seorang muslim yg lebih baik :)

Cintan ! :(

salamullah :)

quite long kan since my last post ! hee .. bukan sbb busy or something that relate dgn aku punya study just tak ada kesempatan nak berdating dgn blog kesayangan niy :D

well ! mesti tertanya2 kan kenapa title yang agak wierd and maybe for some of us it quite annoying ! tapi sebenarnya post kali niy just nk share kesedihan apabila kita kehilangan sesuatu yg kita sangat2 syg ! :'(

CINTAN ! actually tu nama kucing kesayangan aku ! since dia kecik lagi aku bela dia then until today .. dia mati ! :( 

perasaan sedih tu xtau nk ungkapkn sbgai mana rupa .. tapi the one that most sad actually mt little brother .. since aku tak ada kt umah niy .. dia la yg jaga and play around with it ! kdg2 tu smpai tido skaly kt atas katil sbb Cintan niy jinak sngt2 .. suka kacau org lain and always nk attention org lain :)

but today ! everything changed and totally i can feel it until now .. my mum ! seriously speaking she cried and can't bear to see the body ! sorry ummi .. i can't take a good care of Cintan .. sbb dia mati terkena racun or some kind like that .. before it died .. dekat mulut dia cam ada buih2 and dia pon tak boleh nk jalan properly  and it died right after suffering for almost  a whole day .. 

again i'm sorry !

it look just a like this cat ! 

p/s : really hope i can hug it for the last time :'(

all about IPG ! :D

salamullah ! :)

well ! directly after i got out  from penang matriculation .. here is my recent place where i further my studies ! :D 

how about this place ? hee .. soo much to say about this one but for sure everything seems to be nice with me .. but if i say there's no problems at all .. comfirm2 nmpk sngt aku tipu laa kan ? so .. ada laa jgk certain things yg can't get along very well !  thank God ! all the problems i managed to solved it properly and in just a short while :)

but for sure .. this new place reminds me about my life at matriculation .. everything is totally different and the most obvious things is about my friends ! at first the only things i worried was about my friends .. but then actually it not an issue at all .. everyone are so nice and friendly ;)

then ! daa mcm2 event aku join masa kt sana .. kalau nk story satu2 memg sampai pagi esok aku membebel pon comfirm taka akan habis laa :D but the most exciting and enjoying one's is TESL NITE ! 

that's me ! during the rehearsel for teater musical during the event ! seriously it's the new experience and memorable moment ever in my life :) not just this one but so on with other event :/

seriously cakap ! bnyk sngt kalau nk story smua yg aku alami tapi .. i enjoyed my life at there soo much and there are plenty more to come :D

p/s : again ! i met someone i adore and hoping for a happy ending story :)

matriculation life !

salam ! :)

like what i had promise ! here i want to share with you guys about my recent life :D then .. here we go !

flash back to last 6 month ! i still remember the first day i entered the place where most of people likes me which is as a student afraid of to go ! MATRICULATION ! yesss .. here i had to go through this hard life even i don't want to entered it at all ! but still .. i had no choice for my future to come .. matriculation here i come ! :(

first day at there was totally tiring ! then .. for a whole week i had to go through an ice breaking session for new student to being exposed by matriculation rules and regulation ! err :/

but instead .. i felt glad at the same time .. because i had a good  and great classmate after all of us were arranged  to the exact class ! all together .. my classmate were 15 including me .. and for the whole 2 month i was there we had a great moment together especially with my closest friends .. HAIQAL :)

suddenly ! i got this massage that had took me away from matriculation life forever !  a massage that had made me felt so glad with the All Mighty ! telling me that i had an offered for IPG ! as a teacher to be :D that time i felt liked to shout as loud as i can to the world telling that how happy i'm at that moment ! but instead of the happiness .. there someone who is bearing a sadness ! my bff ! 

but then ! he know how much i had being hoping for the offered ! he then  told me that took the chance that what you had dreamed for .. and go for it !!!

then .. i made my decision ! 

IPG ! here i come no matter what  will i face in the future ! :D

well ! that a simple life story about my moment at matriculation ! 

~

p/s : i miss you guys A3P4 :'(

new me (;

Assalamualaikum ! (:

almost 5 month i think that i had post nothing in my dearest blog .. rite ? huhu .. well ! skrg niy daa terdetik pulak nk tulis something .. iyela ! in this 5 long challenging month .. byk sngt story yg daa jdik kt dlm kamus hidup aku nim ..

starting back during my time at matriculation ! well ! i just managed to stay there for almost short two months ..

if i want to share every single thing that i had gone through at there .. definitely there isn't enough space to write about it here .. huhu ! but what i can tell you guys .. there are soo much sweet memories that will be always in my memory box ! (;

then .. suddenly ! i got this massage telling me that i got offer for maktab ! :D Alhamdulillah ! at that moment .. only the All Mighty know how i felt .. such a thing that can't be express by words ! hik3 .. at first .. it quite bothering me actually .. i had to make a shocking decision when i had to choose either to go there or just stay at the matriculation .. but then i made my decision and proceed with what i actually really wanted ..

get through to maktab or well known as IPG :/

well ! as for now that all what i can share .. as soon as possible i will share about my recently life with you guys ! till we meet again .. salam !

p/s : so glad managed to post something even a short one (:

Oh Me !

ohh life ! ohh my ! see ! till now bru aku bleh nk update best friends diary aku nim .. but then this time it just a short entry .. got to go for others work much more important ! but then .. still glad to have such a valuable time with my blog (: um .. next time mebi aku akan infom about my latest life .. soo for now ! olla ~

p/s : really want to post a long entry ):

Dearest 6ixth May (:

Assalamualaikum ! ehem3 :D
well ! act tetiba jadi kind hearted niy cause today was my 18 birthday ! im old already .. hik3 ..but anyway .. im soo glad and thankful to all Mighty cause still giving me an oppurtunity to stay awake and live in this massive world !

I HOPE ! in this all new beginning .. my life will be more valuable and be as wonderful and cheerful like above picture ! no more sad and gloomy day in my entire life .. make me as happy as i can with anything that impossible .. and please ! do make my dreams become reality and all my wish being granted ! :D

not much to say ! all i can do now .. start a new day with a new life books ! and pray that everyting will go smooth and may God bless me well always ! not forget a bunch of thanks to my parents cause taking care of me since i was child and until i can know about the story of life nowadays ! last but not least .. a great thanks also to all that had make my life soo meaningful .. without you all my life would be nothing dear (;



p/s : thanks a lot to all that had wish me Happy Birthday (:

Do i care ?

teramat sangat ingin lepaskan geram dekat sumone yg tak faham Bahasa Melayu ! is every single questions need an answer when it comes to our secret ? can't you just leave me alone and let me keep my secret with me ? let it be mine and STOP asking about it okay ?

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE !



p/s : i just said once .. if you still dont get it .. just forget about it >.<

Shattered here on the floor

again ! hari yang amat membosankan yang terpaksa jugak aku lalui .. haha ! ayat xbleh bla kowt ! but thts the truth .. ingat hari niy boleh laa nk kuar atau pegi lepak2 ngan kawan2 .. last2 kena jugak stay kt umah nim tunggu adek aku balik sebab kena pegi ambik dia kt skolah..adoii ):

by the way ! smlm borak2 dgn sepupu sepapak sdare aku dkt umah mak long ! haha .. and then tak habis2 laa soalan yg bertubi2 dtg cam peluru pistol dekat aku nim .. tanya soalan sal further education yg aku sendiri tgh pening nak fikir ! perlu kew di tanya ? adoii .. tapi tuw laa manusia .. adew sifat ingin tahu .. lau tak takkan wujud laa berbagai jenis manusia kt dunia niy kan ? hik3 ..

tapi aku tetap jgk bagi tahu kt dorg .. just said that .. lau adew rezeki nanti nk masuk maktab ! sebab hari tuw daa pegi intrview and evryting went well ! tpi lau adew choice yg lbh baek mebi akan pegi dekat U kowt.. sumtim like that laa yg aku gtau kt dorg.. hee ~

forgot to say ! aku tak dapat Matrik ! felt soo devastated but well , life must go on right ? due to that .. sesiapa yg dapat tuw a bunch of congrate to all of you .. to those who unlucky as me .. dont be sad .. rezeki adew kt mana2 .. just believe in God that there are much more great plan in the incoming life ! okay (:

well ! got to go anyway .. felt soo damn much sleepy right now .. tpi yew laa kan .. tak elok tido petang2 cam niy .. yew tak ? soo .. just got to go and take my rest ! hee ~


p/s : to someone , tenx for the approve setelah sekian lama .. baru dua bulan jew pon (;

here comes MAY ..

MAY comes .. let by gone be by gone !

well ! since the time move soo fast right now .. i hope in this new month will brings soo much happiness and being soo meaningfull to me .. no more tears and sad moment thats soo bitter for me to go through for the second time ! just hoping that a happy and cheerful of me will brighten my day in this newly month (:

looking at the above picture ! i hope my daily life will be as same as its ! a place that fulls of serenity and tranquility which can brings soo much valuable moment to be remember in the day comes ! do make it becomes reality please ~


p/s : im trying to be a new me (:

Easy Come .. Easy Go ~

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same

No, no, no, no

* Grenade - Bruno Mars *


p/s : evryting is better now .. hope it will always be (:

ohh my ~

well ! agk lme dh kowt aq xpost ppew .. kan kan kan ? huhu .. not bcoz im busy just not in mood ! hope u guys understand (: soo .. my life right now ! notim soo intresting at all .. just really bored and no nothing what to do ! really misz the time when i entered a course called KEX .. really misz my friends , my teachers and expecially my time with all of them inside a class doing a lot of fun and enjoyed stuff )':

since all of above gone ! dh xtau nk buat apew skrg .. stay jew kt umah dh 2 now just wait to go to ipta and proceed in my studies ): again ! ckp sal nk msok ipta nim .. just remembered that yesterday was the day for my intrview for IPG or KPLSPM and this also the reasons why i do not update my dearest blog (;

soo , here goes nothing :

KPLSPM Interview (under PPC Programme) only has 1 stage, which includes three components, which are :

1. Malaysian Teacher Selection Test (MTEST) or INSAK
This test was very easy, but tricky. It consists of 135 questions, each only has 2 answers - you need to choose either one. The period for this test is only 30 minutes - and I believe that all of you can finish it.


For example :
1. Are you kind? (a) Yes (b) No
2. Have you been angry towards others? (a) Yes (b) No
* The questions are in Malay, don't worry.


2. Group Discussion
You'll be given a topic to discuss. This topic has only two sup-topics. The time for each sub-topic is just only 10 minutes. You need to start on your own. Don't talk too little, but not too much. They judge you on your confidence, resilience, phrase and pronunciation.

3. Individual Interview
This one is in English. They will ask about yourself, your hobby, your interest - and about the course that you apply.

(all above i copied from my friends blog , sorry dear (; )

but then .. mine not gone smooth just like above .. its a bit different coz .. i had to done my group discussion first then followed by individual one and lastly the test ! i dont know why but that what i had gone through .. weird right ? but thts the reality :p

back to the story .. during group discussion the topic was EFFECTIVE SCHOOL ! ohh my ~ i dont know what to say at first but then im the one who start the session first ! was that considered as crazy action ? let it be ..hik3 .. then .. i had my individual one .. i thought it gonna be a hard one but then they just ask me about myself .. current issue and then abour ur future planning ! nothing soo challenging ): but still i had a horrable one .. haha ! they ask me : do u always read newspaper ? ohh NO ! time tuw memg dh cuak gler sbb aku niy xyah ckp laa .. the laziest one nk bce paper .. lau bce pon dkt bhgian sukan jew ..hehe ..

then ! the panel told me .. u want to be a teacher but u didnt read newspaper .. how could u know about current issue ? i then just smiled and said to her .. i just use my fingers mam .. evryting is on the internet now (: she then smiled and stop asking me that questions ! that time .. i felt soo relieve ~ fiyuhh !

well ! i felt soo satisfied with what i had done today but there also happen an accident that embarressed me soo damn much ! know what ? i forgot to take off my nametag that they had gave to me until i went down then sumone told me ! nice nametag ! haha .. at that time i felt soo feelingless u know ! whaaa..what a day for me >.<

soo ! notim more to say ..
just hope i can got through this intrview..
do pray for me k u guys ..
thts all ..
bye !


p/s : im soo happy right now (:

All Day Long ~

well ! soo damn much borim ary nim , xtau nk buat apew just tdo..tdo and tdo ! haha .. ingt nk settle sal sijil smua .. last2 tdo jew memnjg ! hik3 .. yew la , niy smua sal intrview pnye psal laa .. nk tdo pon susa , haishh ! but anyway .. ary nim aku dpt tdo a whole day kowt ! hee ~ but still .. aku kne gk sttle sal sijil nim .. yew laa , nex week daa nk pegi intrview tuw .. daa laa bnyk gler bnde nk sttle ..bkn sal sijil tuw jew .. lau nk ckp memg xhabis aku mmbebel sal nim .. hee ~

ha'a ! almost forgot .. smlm pegi laa bli bju kt kBmall ! haha , lucu gler kowt time nk bli bju tuw .. bknye apew , kakak yg keje kt c2 tuw cam nk naek gler kowt ngn aku ..haha ! kesian kt dye , yew la mne tak nyew .. kne lyn krenah aku yg tah ppew nim ! smua nim slh baju tuw laa .. bnyk sngt pilihan .. smpai aku jdik rambang mata ! pening kowt nk pilih.. hee ~ memg kesian gler tgk dye smlm .. but still aku customer ! soo .. customer always RIGHT ! kan kan kan ? haha :D

above picture just for display .. hee ~

soo ! today was a boring day to me ..
but still really happy ! coz i got my valuable sleep time , huhu ..
such a great day for me (:


p/s : make ur best decision k ! :D

just ' DO ' it !

okay ! not associated with any nike commercial :D , just a tittle for me to inspire mysely and others out there to trust and believe yourself about anything u had make in your life was the best u had done (: , never regret and just thankful to all Mighty that u still being given an opportunity that others might not be able to fell it even just once in their life ! wether it is something that brings happiness or sadness .. just appreciate what we had got in nowadays life ! but if u still refuse to do soo .. just take this as yours inspiration :~

Don't give up on your dreams, goals or aspirations for you never know how right they truly are until you put them into action.

yup ! anyting yg trjdik lam hidup kte nim , jgn laa cpt sngt ptus asa but believing in yourself is one of the first steps to success. If you don't have confidence in yourself, it will be difficult to succeed in anything ! and dont say this => 'Ok , aku dh xlarat ! i want to quit ! ' please NO ! but let just says ' Yes , i will just DO it ! ' that will be more great compare to others one !

last word ..

Believe In Yourself , and You Will Do Your BEST ! (:

thts it for now ..
bye !


p/s : do believe urself to k (;

there is nothing that i can't DO !

yup ! there is notim IMPOSSIBLE in this nowaday world ! evryting that just came on in ur mind , just grab and make it become reality ! do what u think is the best .. nver say NO ! to something that even u didn't try to achieve , bcoz one day in the future ! u will regret on what u had done and the change will NEVER came back in ur life ! even u create a tears of blood (:

well ! korg msty dh tau kan tntg apew yg aku ngah bebelkan nim , yup ! this is all about life ! mcm2 bnde yg nk kne sttle , dh tuw kne decide plak sal apew nk buat , too damn much of things need to be handle ! tpi .. tuw laa psal kehidupan , always jew kne buat keputusan even bnde tuw tramat sngt pahit tuk dibuat ! and after that there will be the road not taken ! a things that hard to describe but thats totally of true life !

since last few days , smua kwn2 aku ngah asyik menyoal siasat sal maktab ! yew la .. excited nk thu others dpt kew tak , biarlah dri sndri pon xdpat .. adoii ! Ahmdulilah laa , aku still jgk dpt dan xder laa segan sngt nk jwb kt dorg2 yg kaki PENYIBUK tuw ! tpi lantak dorg laa , yg aku thu skrg a step forward lgy aku dh nk dpt capai apew yg aku harapkan sejak aku kecik , bkn profession guru yg aku harapkan , but as a LECTURER ! thts my dreams , jdik ! aku anggp niy smua sbgai jalan tuk aku capai impian aku yg terpendam slama nim , n God ! please make a way for me to achieve this ! ^.^

tapi laa kan , lau dpt course lain nant , still aku akn pilih blik jgk , cuma niy smua plan awl bgy aku tkot nant jadi plak bnde yg xsptotnye , soo .. this is a PLAN A for me to proceed in my studies ! hope soo much evryting will go smooth and just fine (:

okay ! gtg now ..
mata aku nim dh slowly nk trttp ..
really need my rest now !
thts all ..
bye !


p/s : hope u had a better plan for ur future too (:

a WAY to success ..

TAHNIAH !

Anda layak untuk menghadiri Temuduga Program Kursus Perguruan Lepas Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia Ambilan Jun 2011.

thank God ! u make me blieve there still a hope for me in the fture to come ! i wish i realise all this much more earlier , now ! i want to change evryting and begin with a new me starting with a new life book (: well ! since this is a beginning , i just hope after this all will goes well n smooth ! again ! thanks for give me this priceless oppurtunity in my life !

p/s : if u there ! i hope evryting goes well to (':

D-Day On Cert Ceremony (:

okay ! past 7th of April was D-Day for my hard work on presentation board was officially ended ! thts all during Certificate Ceremony KEX'11 (: , well ! during that time all plan goes well including the surprises for our beloved teachers ! hik3..nothing unwanted things happened and evrything were soo exciting that day !

then ! no more bgn awl2 pegi kt krisma tuk rehearsel , lunch togther ngn smua actors , make fun and jokes during rehearsel , gadoh ngn my assistant Aqilah Naziman , sharing my personal probs ngn AisyAmira.hik3 , and others xtvt yg aku slalu buat mse pegi rehearsel kt karisma ! gonna misz soo damn much all thats moment with all of you )':

not much to say ! just trlmpau bnyk sngt new things yg aku dapat drik KEX nim expecially got to know her..hehe ! hope all this moment will always be in my heart ! love all of u soo damn much expecially to sis Marina n captain Arifin (:

not much to share ! just enjoy the pic !

thts all ! bye (:


p/s : no pictures with her ):

may all goes well tomorrow !
really hope that soo damn much..
(:



p/s : all d best to her while doing ur job !