all about IPG ! :D

salamullah ! :)

well ! directly after i got out  from penang matriculation .. here is my recent place where i further my studies ! :D 

how about this place ? hee .. soo much to say about this one but for sure everything seems to be nice with me .. but if i say there's no problems at all .. comfirm2 nmpk sngt aku tipu laa kan ? so .. ada laa jgk certain things yg can't get along very well !  thank God ! all the problems i managed to solved it properly and in just a short while :)

but for sure .. this new place reminds me about my life at matriculation .. everything is totally different and the most obvious things is about my friends ! at first the only things i worried was about my friends .. but then actually it not an issue at all .. everyone are so nice and friendly ;)

then ! daa mcm2 event aku join masa kt sana .. kalau nk story satu2 memg sampai pagi esok aku membebel pon comfirm taka akan habis laa :D but the most exciting and enjoying one's is TESL NITE ! 

that's me ! during the rehearsel for teater musical during the event ! seriously it's the new experience and memorable moment ever in my life :) not just this one but so on with other event :/

seriously cakap ! bnyk sngt kalau nk story smua yg aku alami tapi .. i enjoyed my life at there soo much and there are plenty more to come :D

p/s : again ! i met someone i adore and hoping for a happy ending story :)

matriculation life !

salam ! :)

like what i had promise ! here i want to share with you guys about my recent life :D then .. here we go !

flash back to last 6 month ! i still remember the first day i entered the place where most of people likes me which is as a student afraid of to go ! MATRICULATION ! yesss .. here i had to go through this hard life even i don't want to entered it at all ! but still .. i had no choice for my future to come .. matriculation here i come ! :(

first day at there was totally tiring ! then .. for a whole week i had to go through an ice breaking session for new student to being exposed by matriculation rules and regulation ! err :/

but instead .. i felt glad at the same time .. because i had a good  and great classmate after all of us were arranged  to the exact class ! all together .. my classmate were 15 including me .. and for the whole 2 month i was there we had a great moment together especially with my closest friends .. HAIQAL :)

suddenly ! i got this massage that had took me away from matriculation life forever !  a massage that had made me felt so glad with the All Mighty ! telling me that i had an offered for IPG ! as a teacher to be :D that time i felt liked to shout as loud as i can to the world telling that how happy i'm at that moment ! but instead of the happiness .. there someone who is bearing a sadness ! my bff ! 

but then ! he know how much i had being hoping for the offered ! he then  told me that took the chance that what you had dreamed for .. and go for it !!!

then .. i made my decision ! 

IPG ! here i come no matter what  will i face in the future ! :D

well ! that a simple life story about my moment at matriculation ! 

~

p/s : i miss you guys A3P4 :'(

new me (;

Assalamualaikum ! (:

almost 5 month i think that i had post nothing in my dearest blog .. rite ? huhu .. well ! skrg niy daa terdetik pulak nk tulis something .. iyela ! in this 5 long challenging month .. byk sngt story yg daa jdik kt dlm kamus hidup aku nim ..

starting back during my time at matriculation ! well ! i just managed to stay there for almost short two months ..

if i want to share every single thing that i had gone through at there .. definitely there isn't enough space to write about it here .. huhu ! but what i can tell you guys .. there are soo much sweet memories that will be always in my memory box ! (;

then .. suddenly ! i got this massage telling me that i got offer for maktab ! :D Alhamdulillah ! at that moment .. only the All Mighty know how i felt .. such a thing that can't be express by words ! hik3 .. at first .. it quite bothering me actually .. i had to make a shocking decision when i had to choose either to go there or just stay at the matriculation .. but then i made my decision and proceed with what i actually really wanted ..

get through to maktab or well known as IPG :/

well ! as for now that all what i can share .. as soon as possible i will share about my recently life with you guys ! till we meet again .. salam !

p/s : so glad managed to post something even a short one (:

Oh Me !

ohh life ! ohh my ! see ! till now bru aku bleh nk update best friends diary aku nim .. but then this time it just a short entry .. got to go for others work much more important ! but then .. still glad to have such a valuable time with my blog (: um .. next time mebi aku akan infom about my latest life .. soo for now ! olla ~

p/s : really want to post a long entry ):

Dearest 6ixth May (:

Assalamualaikum ! ehem3 :D
well ! act tetiba jadi kind hearted niy cause today was my 18 birthday ! im old already .. hik3 ..but anyway .. im soo glad and thankful to all Mighty cause still giving me an oppurtunity to stay awake and live in this massive world !

I HOPE ! in this all new beginning .. my life will be more valuable and be as wonderful and cheerful like above picture ! no more sad and gloomy day in my entire life .. make me as happy as i can with anything that impossible .. and please ! do make my dreams become reality and all my wish being granted ! :D

not much to say ! all i can do now .. start a new day with a new life books ! and pray that everyting will go smooth and may God bless me well always ! not forget a bunch of thanks to my parents cause taking care of me since i was child and until i can know about the story of life nowadays ! last but not least .. a great thanks also to all that had make my life soo meaningful .. without you all my life would be nothing dear (;



p/s : thanks a lot to all that had wish me Happy Birthday (:

Do i care ?

teramat sangat ingin lepaskan geram dekat sumone yg tak faham Bahasa Melayu ! is every single questions need an answer when it comes to our secret ? can't you just leave me alone and let me keep my secret with me ? let it be mine and STOP asking about it okay ?

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE !



p/s : i just said once .. if you still dont get it .. just forget about it >.<

Shattered here on the floor

again ! hari yang amat membosankan yang terpaksa jugak aku lalui .. haha ! ayat xbleh bla kowt ! but thts the truth .. ingat hari niy boleh laa nk kuar atau pegi lepak2 ngan kawan2 .. last2 kena jugak stay kt umah nim tunggu adek aku balik sebab kena pegi ambik dia kt skolah..adoii ):

by the way ! smlm borak2 dgn sepupu sepapak sdare aku dkt umah mak long ! haha .. and then tak habis2 laa soalan yg bertubi2 dtg cam peluru pistol dekat aku nim .. tanya soalan sal further education yg aku sendiri tgh pening nak fikir ! perlu kew di tanya ? adoii .. tapi tuw laa manusia .. adew sifat ingin tahu .. lau tak takkan wujud laa berbagai jenis manusia kt dunia niy kan ? hik3 ..

tapi aku tetap jgk bagi tahu kt dorg .. just said that .. lau adew rezeki nanti nk masuk maktab ! sebab hari tuw daa pegi intrview and evryting went well ! tpi lau adew choice yg lbh baek mebi akan pegi dekat U kowt.. sumtim like that laa yg aku gtau kt dorg.. hee ~

forgot to say ! aku tak dapat Matrik ! felt soo devastated but well , life must go on right ? due to that .. sesiapa yg dapat tuw a bunch of congrate to all of you .. to those who unlucky as me .. dont be sad .. rezeki adew kt mana2 .. just believe in God that there are much more great plan in the incoming life ! okay (:

well ! got to go anyway .. felt soo damn much sleepy right now .. tpi yew laa kan .. tak elok tido petang2 cam niy .. yew tak ? soo .. just got to go and take my rest ! hee ~


p/s : to someone , tenx for the approve setelah sekian lama .. baru dua bulan jew pon (;

here comes MAY ..

MAY comes .. let by gone be by gone !

well ! since the time move soo fast right now .. i hope in this new month will brings soo much happiness and being soo meaningfull to me .. no more tears and sad moment thats soo bitter for me to go through for the second time ! just hoping that a happy and cheerful of me will brighten my day in this newly month (:

looking at the above picture ! i hope my daily life will be as same as its ! a place that fulls of serenity and tranquility which can brings soo much valuable moment to be remember in the day comes ! do make it becomes reality please ~


p/s : im trying to be a new me (:

Easy Come .. Easy Go ~

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same

No, no, no, no

* Grenade - Bruno Mars *


p/s : evryting is better now .. hope it will always be (:

ohh my ~

well ! agk lme dh kowt aq xpost ppew .. kan kan kan ? huhu .. not bcoz im busy just not in mood ! hope u guys understand (: soo .. my life right now ! notim soo intresting at all .. just really bored and no nothing what to do ! really misz the time when i entered a course called KEX .. really misz my friends , my teachers and expecially my time with all of them inside a class doing a lot of fun and enjoyed stuff )':

since all of above gone ! dh xtau nk buat apew skrg .. stay jew kt umah dh 2 now just wait to go to ipta and proceed in my studies ): again ! ckp sal nk msok ipta nim .. just remembered that yesterday was the day for my intrview for IPG or KPLSPM and this also the reasons why i do not update my dearest blog (;

soo , here goes nothing :

KPLSPM Interview (under PPC Programme) only has 1 stage, which includes three components, which are :

1. Malaysian Teacher Selection Test (MTEST) or INSAK
This test was very easy, but tricky. It consists of 135 questions, each only has 2 answers - you need to choose either one. The period for this test is only 30 minutes - and I believe that all of you can finish it.


For example :
1. Are you kind? (a) Yes (b) No
2. Have you been angry towards others? (a) Yes (b) No
* The questions are in Malay, don't worry.


2. Group Discussion
You'll be given a topic to discuss. This topic has only two sup-topics. The time for each sub-topic is just only 10 minutes. You need to start on your own. Don't talk too little, but not too much. They judge you on your confidence, resilience, phrase and pronunciation.

3. Individual Interview
This one is in English. They will ask about yourself, your hobby, your interest - and about the course that you apply.

(all above i copied from my friends blog , sorry dear (; )

but then .. mine not gone smooth just like above .. its a bit different coz .. i had to done my group discussion first then followed by individual one and lastly the test ! i dont know why but that what i had gone through .. weird right ? but thts the reality :p

back to the story .. during group discussion the topic was EFFECTIVE SCHOOL ! ohh my ~ i dont know what to say at first but then im the one who start the session first ! was that considered as crazy action ? let it be ..hik3 .. then .. i had my individual one .. i thought it gonna be a hard one but then they just ask me about myself .. current issue and then abour ur future planning ! nothing soo challenging ): but still i had a horrable one .. haha ! they ask me : do u always read newspaper ? ohh NO ! time tuw memg dh cuak gler sbb aku niy xyah ckp laa .. the laziest one nk bce paper .. lau bce pon dkt bhgian sukan jew ..hehe ..

then ! the panel told me .. u want to be a teacher but u didnt read newspaper .. how could u know about current issue ? i then just smiled and said to her .. i just use my fingers mam .. evryting is on the internet now (: she then smiled and stop asking me that questions ! that time .. i felt soo relieve ~ fiyuhh !

well ! i felt soo satisfied with what i had done today but there also happen an accident that embarressed me soo damn much ! know what ? i forgot to take off my nametag that they had gave to me until i went down then sumone told me ! nice nametag ! haha .. at that time i felt soo feelingless u know ! whaaa..what a day for me >.<

soo ! notim more to say ..
just hope i can got through this intrview..
do pray for me k u guys ..
thts all ..
bye !


p/s : im soo happy right now (:

All Day Long ~

well ! soo damn much borim ary nim , xtau nk buat apew just tdo..tdo and tdo ! haha .. ingt nk settle sal sijil smua .. last2 tdo jew memnjg ! hik3 .. yew la , niy smua sal intrview pnye psal laa .. nk tdo pon susa , haishh ! but anyway .. ary nim aku dpt tdo a whole day kowt ! hee ~ but still .. aku kne gk sttle sal sijil nim .. yew laa , nex week daa nk pegi intrview tuw .. daa laa bnyk gler bnde nk sttle ..bkn sal sijil tuw jew .. lau nk ckp memg xhabis aku mmbebel sal nim .. hee ~

ha'a ! almost forgot .. smlm pegi laa bli bju kt kBmall ! haha , lucu gler kowt time nk bli bju tuw .. bknye apew , kakak yg keje kt c2 tuw cam nk naek gler kowt ngn aku ..haha ! kesian kt dye , yew la mne tak nyew .. kne lyn krenah aku yg tah ppew nim ! smua nim slh baju tuw laa .. bnyk sngt pilihan .. smpai aku jdik rambang mata ! pening kowt nk pilih.. hee ~ memg kesian gler tgk dye smlm .. but still aku customer ! soo .. customer always RIGHT ! kan kan kan ? haha :D

above picture just for display .. hee ~

soo ! today was a boring day to me ..
but still really happy ! coz i got my valuable sleep time , huhu ..
such a great day for me (:


p/s : make ur best decision k ! :D

just ' DO ' it !

okay ! not associated with any nike commercial :D , just a tittle for me to inspire mysely and others out there to trust and believe yourself about anything u had make in your life was the best u had done (: , never regret and just thankful to all Mighty that u still being given an opportunity that others might not be able to fell it even just once in their life ! wether it is something that brings happiness or sadness .. just appreciate what we had got in nowadays life ! but if u still refuse to do soo .. just take this as yours inspiration :~

Don't give up on your dreams, goals or aspirations for you never know how right they truly are until you put them into action.

yup ! anyting yg trjdik lam hidup kte nim , jgn laa cpt sngt ptus asa but believing in yourself is one of the first steps to success. If you don't have confidence in yourself, it will be difficult to succeed in anything ! and dont say this => 'Ok , aku dh xlarat ! i want to quit ! ' please NO ! but let just says ' Yes , i will just DO it ! ' that will be more great compare to others one !

last word ..

Believe In Yourself , and You Will Do Your BEST ! (:

thts it for now ..
bye !


p/s : do believe urself to k (;

there is nothing that i can't DO !

yup ! there is notim IMPOSSIBLE in this nowaday world ! evryting that just came on in ur mind , just grab and make it become reality ! do what u think is the best .. nver say NO ! to something that even u didn't try to achieve , bcoz one day in the future ! u will regret on what u had done and the change will NEVER came back in ur life ! even u create a tears of blood (:

well ! korg msty dh tau kan tntg apew yg aku ngah bebelkan nim , yup ! this is all about life ! mcm2 bnde yg nk kne sttle , dh tuw kne decide plak sal apew nk buat , too damn much of things need to be handle ! tpi .. tuw laa psal kehidupan , always jew kne buat keputusan even bnde tuw tramat sngt pahit tuk dibuat ! and after that there will be the road not taken ! a things that hard to describe but thats totally of true life !

since last few days , smua kwn2 aku ngah asyik menyoal siasat sal maktab ! yew la .. excited nk thu others dpt kew tak , biarlah dri sndri pon xdpat .. adoii ! Ahmdulilah laa , aku still jgk dpt dan xder laa segan sngt nk jwb kt dorg2 yg kaki PENYIBUK tuw ! tpi lantak dorg laa , yg aku thu skrg a step forward lgy aku dh nk dpt capai apew yg aku harapkan sejak aku kecik , bkn profession guru yg aku harapkan , but as a LECTURER ! thts my dreams , jdik ! aku anggp niy smua sbgai jalan tuk aku capai impian aku yg terpendam slama nim , n God ! please make a way for me to achieve this ! ^.^

tapi laa kan , lau dpt course lain nant , still aku akn pilih blik jgk , cuma niy smua plan awl bgy aku tkot nant jadi plak bnde yg xsptotnye , soo .. this is a PLAN A for me to proceed in my studies ! hope soo much evryting will go smooth and just fine (:

okay ! gtg now ..
mata aku nim dh slowly nk trttp ..
really need my rest now !
thts all ..
bye !


p/s : hope u had a better plan for ur future too (:

a WAY to success ..

TAHNIAH !

Anda layak untuk menghadiri Temuduga Program Kursus Perguruan Lepas Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia Ambilan Jun 2011.

thank God ! u make me blieve there still a hope for me in the fture to come ! i wish i realise all this much more earlier , now ! i want to change evryting and begin with a new me starting with a new life book (: well ! since this is a beginning , i just hope after this all will goes well n smooth ! again ! thanks for give me this priceless oppurtunity in my life !

p/s : if u there ! i hope evryting goes well to (':

D-Day On Cert Ceremony (:

okay ! past 7th of April was D-Day for my hard work on presentation board was officially ended ! thts all during Certificate Ceremony KEX'11 (: , well ! during that time all plan goes well including the surprises for our beloved teachers ! hik3..nothing unwanted things happened and evrything were soo exciting that day !

then ! no more bgn awl2 pegi kt krisma tuk rehearsel , lunch togther ngn smua actors , make fun and jokes during rehearsel , gadoh ngn my assistant Aqilah Naziman , sharing my personal probs ngn AisyAmira.hik3 , and others xtvt yg aku slalu buat mse pegi rehearsel kt karisma ! gonna misz soo damn much all thats moment with all of you )':

not much to say ! just trlmpau bnyk sngt new things yg aku dapat drik KEX nim expecially got to know her..hehe ! hope all this moment will always be in my heart ! love all of u soo damn much expecially to sis Marina n captain Arifin (:

not much to share ! just enjoy the pic !

thts all ! bye (:


p/s : no pictures with her ):

may all goes well tomorrow !
really hope that soo damn much..
(:



p/s : all d best to her while doing ur job !

Soccer !!!

ok fine ! now ! aku ngah merana , meraung , menahan SAKIT ! whaa , hurt this soo damn much ! know why ? all this bcoz the above matter ! sobs2..yew la ! ptg tdiy pnye tragedi laa nim , aku niyh memg lau sary tuw xmain bola ! fuhh ! xlalu mkn aku dbuat nyew..hee (; but then ! now aku rse cam xnk jew lgy men bola ( ckp jew tuw ) ! yew la ! kaki aku daa bengkak2 doe..nk jalan pon dah mcm org OKU ! bleh imagine tak ? haha , dh laa krje aku byk gler lgy , trpkse laa aku buat jgk even aku gundah gulana sbb kaki yg injured nim )':

btw ! i need sumone to fill me up myself with happiness rite now ! really need it soo damn much ! IDK why ? just im really begging for that ! i wish i could turn back the time n went back to the moment full of laughter and happiness , even just for temporary ! well ! need to calm my mind rite now , please problems ! away from me for a while and perhaps FOREVER !!!
thts all ! bye !


p/s : suddenly im thinking about u , and all the mistakes that i had done )':

here comes APRIL (:

ohh well ! here comes APRIL ! but still the same me (: just , hope that soo much this month gonna be a month that bring changes to my life and gonna be a great month to me anyway ! still ! bnyk lgy krje yg aku kne settle ! fiyuhh ! but still , aku kne buat jgk kan..yew laa ! malas tuw xyah ckp laa , memg dh sntiasa wujud dlm dri aku nim ! but this time , please ! KEMALASAN ! u pegi main jaoh2 , i nk buat krje i dgn jayanya..hik3 ! :D

others than that ! hope soo much that this month will bring a lot of happiness to me , and gve a lot of meaningful experience for my fture life (: and , please !!! let me get along back with her ! really miss u damn much dear ):

umm ! nothing more to bebel about ! hik3..
just !
wishing a lot miracle will happen in this new month !
thts all..nytes !


p/s : i wish u know how much i need u dear (:

teramat sngt boring skrg nim ! i wish i at karisma rite now..
miss u guys already..hik3..
well ! nk rest jap ! (:

Kangen Band-Pujaan Hati

hei pujaan hati apa kabarmu
ku harap kau baik-baik saja
pujaan hati andai kau tahu
ku sangat mencintai dirimu
hei pujaan hati setiap malam
aku berdoa kepada sang Tuhan
berharap cintaku jadi kenyataan
agar ku tenang meniti kehidupan

* hei pujaan hati, pujaan hati
pujaan hati, pujaan hati

reff:
mengapa kau tak membalas cintaku
mengapa engkau abaikan rasaku
ataukah mungkin hatimu membeku
hingga kau tak pernah pedulikan aku

cobalah mengerti keadaanku
dan cobalah pahami keinginanku
ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
lengkapi jalan cerita hidupku

hei pujaan hati, pujaan hati

hei pujaan hati setiap malam
aku berdoa kepada sang Tuhan

berharap cintaku jadi kenyataan
agar ku tenang meniti kehidupan

p/s : i hope u know all this (':

Morning ! (:

ohh yeah ! really misz this blog damn much..haha..yew la kan..since last two days..
aku xpost ppew..quite bust right now act ! but siyezly i want to make up with it right now..
since last two days..aku asyik ulang alik jew kt karisma..hik3..yew laa kan !
mne tak nyew..sibuk ngn amanah yg diberi kt aku nim ! and this is all bcoz cert-ceremony !
but siyezly..i dont mind at all ! im doing all this sincerely for my beloved teachers sis marina ! (:
but anyway ! aku enjoy jew mse kt sana..yew la ! dgn kwn2 yg agk sewel..memg happening !
siyezly ! really love yaa my friends ♥
ohh yaa ! today my parents will not be going around ! both of them will go aboard !
whaa..really gonna misz them soo much ! but..sdeh jgk sbnrnyew..yew laa ! sbb xdpt pegi..
iskk iskk ! but soo k..while they at there ! Oh God ! please safe them from any harm..
and do take good care of them ! really love both of u damn much (:

and still !
for this 3 weeks long !
im still cant sleep well..
ohh my !
wth is happening to me ):

umm !
thts it maybe for now..
karisma dh memggl2 nme aku kowt..
ahak..
well ! gtg !
thts all !
bye (:


p/s : hope she in a good situation..n really miss u dear ):

believe in urself , piqa !

iyup ! i know i can face all this ! even.. i think today is far much more btter than yestrday..and hope soo goes same with tomorow (: well ! i had enough think about all this all day long..nk apply tuw laa..ini laa..adoii ! tired with all this..why cant we just believe in God ! percaya yg rezeki tuw adew kt mne2 jew ! umm ): hope soo much can go through all this quickly and make the best decision later ! ohh yess ~ ary niy nk try luck aku kt Selangkah Ke UITM kt Machang ! hope adew laa rzeki aku kt cner nant (: well ! thts all..bye ~


p/s : make a right decision okay (:

its all FATED !

' when there a will , there always a way ! '

always jew thinking sal RESULT yg aku dapat skrg ! not miss even a single minutes thinking about all this ! well ! i know my result not as good as others , but still i want to be a successful person !
aku xkesah pon sal apew yg org len nk ckp tntg aku pnye result !
as long as i know ! i had done my best !
dan aku percaya pada sentence niy :

Jangan bersedih dgn apa yg ALLAH telah tetapkan untuk kita..
Setiap kali kita berdoa.ALLAH sentiasa mendengar dan jawapannya ada 3. Dan ketiga tiganya adalah YA.
1-YA , akanKU kabulkan doamu hambaKU
2-YA , akanKU kabulkan tapi bukan sekarang
3-YA , tapi aku ada rancangan yg lbih baik untukmu

soo !
think about it wisely ! as long as u believe in yourself and most importantly dear God !
there will always a HOPE !
for you to face all the hardships thts soo bitter !
know !
im starting to realise all this..
thanks my lord !
thts all..
bye.


p/s : i hope u b strong k (:

Diantara Kalian ..

Diantara Kalian - D'Masiv

Ku akui ku sangat-sangat menginginkan mu,
tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian.
Aku, tak mengerti,
ini semua harus, terjadi.

Ku akui ku sangat-sangat mengharapkan mu,
tapi ku kini sadar ku tak akan bisa.

[Reff:]
Lupakan aku, kembali padanya,
aku bukan siapa-siapa, untuk mu.
Ku cintai mu, tak berarti bahwa,
ku harus memiliki mu s’lamanya.

A a, a a.

Ku akui ku sangat-sangat menginginkan mu,
tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian.

[Reff]

Oo aku, tak mengerti,
ini semua harus, terjadi.

[Reff] (x2)

A a, a a.
A a, a a.

p/s : )':

The Moon ..

just now !
i saw the moon shining brightly..
soo beautiful of the God creations in this world !
suddenly !
i just remember about all the sweet memories that i had gone through !
is it gonna always be likes this ???
just a memories that left for me ???
i hope i can shine back my life, just likes the moon..
brighten the darkness of the night !

this night also !
im alone talking to the moon..
asking what will happen next in my life..
because missing sumone thts seems forgetting me !
how can i face all this !
oh God !
pless !


p/s : hoping u will come back )':

Arghhh ~

my head felt dizzy rite now !
a lot of probs need to be settle down..
just need a good rest rite now..
well !
mebi its time for me to go to sleep..
since i went back from camping..
i cant even sleep..
but tonite !
i want to have my valuable sleep time and dreams ! hik3..
soo..
thts all this nite !
see yaa !
bye ~


p/s : i wish im the one for you ):

Sapienta In The House ...

okesh !
bru jew ciap kemas rumah !
why ?
cz all Sapienta siblings gathering kt uma aku ary nim..
for BBQ and playing games..
whaa..happening gler kowt..
really enjoyed it damn muchh today !
even its tiring me alot (;

can you all see the happy faces ?
we all enjoyed what we had done today..
a lot of excitement and embarassing things we had done..
but siyezly !
we all love it damn much ! hik3..

act , evryone gather kt umah aku kul 9 am agy , till 5 pm , but still the time not enough for all of us to stay and play togther , theres a lot of other things we want to do ! but , evryone must went home and rest !
but at least , all of us had a really great time together and such a happening day even its just temporary !
but togther ! we all gather as a SIBLINGS ! (:

well !
not much to say..
just really enjoyed it damn much..
soo thts all.. tata ~


p/s : really hope she also there ):

Pray ..

now !

evryting that i do are useless..

i cant be mysely..

i DONT KNOW WHY !

at this moment..

i can just pray..

and try to face it !

but anyting that i do..

just remind me of her !

why i must face it..

WHY ???

is there nver ever..

in this live.

a happy ending story ?

is it always end with tears ?

no one know !

even myself !

I DONT KNOW !

ohh GOD !

pless.. !

)':

p/s : just hope my pray will be HEARD !

Lonely ~

umm ! act xtau nk ckp sal apew , just really2 feel soo lonely rite now without any news from that person ! hope she will tell me soon ):
theres sumting i want to say act , tpi cam adew jew sumting kt dlm mulut niy xbgy aku ckp ,
cam sjew jew dye sruh simpn n then make it as a secret to myself !
mebi sbb aku trlampau rindu yg teramat sngt kowt kt that person smpai evry single things yg aku buat aku mesti ingt kt dye , aku pon xtau apa yg dh jdik ngn dri aku skrg niyh , dh angau kowt ! hik3 , just really hope that i can hear a good news from her later (:

well !
no more things to say..
just really2 hope that things will happen..
thts all..
bye ~


p/s : please contact me ):

Sad Moment ):

ok fine !
that its for KEX '11 in my life !
today is last day and no more happening day likes there was in KEX..
really gonna miss that moment ):

anyway ! byk agy sbnrnye stori sal kex nim , tpi lau nk cter from the beginning till the end !
fiyuhh ! memg smpai pgy esop arh aku men'wrote ' kt cniy ! hik3..
just , what the simple word i can say about kex is..
WONDERFUL ! (:

u know ! on this day i cry , funny kan ? ahak, but that the truth , i cant bear to see all my friends
sad with tears beside hugging each others ! what a great family we had on this moment and
forever !!!
the lesson actually teach us to be more matured and realise about what is the reality of life in this world that never ever had the end ! making us learning to be more active than pasive in way of our daily life with friends and others expecially when its goes to talking face to face !

sal pengalaman plak xyah ckp arh ! bergunung2 kowt ! huhu , trlampau susah nk describe ngn kata2 or baris ayat ! just one thing that sure ! you will never get to learn and feel all this if you yourself dont follow
this exciting learning english course !
NEVER IN THIS WORLD !
only in a littel place called KARISMA ! :D

well !
noting more to say about..
just evrything that start must be the end , right ?
soo..
thats the end off KEX journey ~


p/s : she didnt cry today ! but still , i miss her (:

Debate ..

ok fine !
today aku kena debate ngn owg yg gila2 power english..
yg aku nim memg broken gila !
can you all imagine that ? fuhh ~

but thats the truth actually happen today in my life..
tpi , sal ilmu ngn pngalaman korg xyah ckp arh..
bnyk gler yg aku dapat..
slain dri thu cner nk handle stress jew , aku pon dpt jgk control mslh yg aku ngh alami skrg..
soo..
Thank God for giving me this chance (:

well ! bnyk gler lau aku nk story kot lau aku nk cter start dri A -> Z ! memg smpai pgy xhabis arh aku membebel mlm niy ! hik3 , just nk gtau yg aku memg dpt full support from my beloved friends in SAPIENTA ! and also from sumone (:
aku pon nk berterima kasih sngt2 kt dorg , cbb snggp tggu aku smpai ptg just nk bgy support kt aku..tenx guys ! u all make me feel about the true friendship !

mebi tuw jew kowt aku nk share..
nk ckp bnyk pon xleh..
susah nk describe..huhu..
soo..
grab any opportunity in your life..
do believe urself..
nyte guys..
tata ~


p/s : tenx you for evryting (:

Hope ..

well !
HARAPAN !
soo many things to say rite..
about this matter..
siyezly !
i start to believe i need this..
miracle appear in my live..

really need it damn much ):

rmai yg anggap lau dh memg sesuatu tuw dtkdirkn sedemikian , soo dh xder ppew yg boleh dbuat untk mngubh nyew..kan ?? tpi , bkn bgtu sbnrnye ! kte mmpu mngubh sgala tkdir jika kita yakin dan tekad dlm mncapai sesuatu yg dinginkn melalui DOA ! yakinlah ! setiap apa yg brlaku adew hikmah dsbliknye , dan stiap apa yg kte hajatkn , adew pro contra nyew masing2, samada Baik @ Buruk !

for me ! i hope that evry single thing thats i do , can bring happiness to anyone , evnthough i had to sacrifice myself ! NEVER EVER want to see my beloved one crying !

for now !
tuw jew kowt..
sorry sbb mlm niy really miss sumone..
speechless with what i want to say..
away for a while..
see yaa ~


p/s : im sorry if i make u cry )':

Caring & Sharing ..

hey ~
SHARING jom ! (:
what did you guys expect..
when sumone asking you to do this..
is this normal or absolutely awkward to you ???
doesn't matter what it is..
just one thing i know !!!
i want to share all my
HAPPINESS & SADNESS..
with the one i really love most in my live..

well ! thats the truth , maybe bgi sumone niy smua just a silly little things ! but , i have my own oppinion and i really hope that person can share all her feelings with me , neither happy or sad one (;

CARING !
is it necessary to some of us ?? if me , i say totally yes !!! why ?? bcz when i really love and admire sumone , i really want to make that person happy and nothing can stop me from doing all this in my daily life !

well !
that its for tonite..
soo damn much sleepy rite now..
just rmember those two things..
okey ???
tata ~


p/s : miss u damn much (:

Keep Smiling (;

hye ~
SMILING !!!
iyup ,thats what we do when we happy !
right ???
tpi yew laa kan..
bkn evry time kta always smiling..
adew jgk time kta sdeh , frust , marah , bored ,senget !!!
kan ??? hik3..
soo..
anyting hppen to us..

keep smiling okey (:

yg aku pegi mmbebel sal snyum niy bknye apa..iyew laa !!! just nk gtau kt dri aku nim be happy..tuw jew ! sbb muka aku skrg dh mcm makin hitam kowt ~ waa ! what am i suppose to do ?? sumone please tell me ?? umm , but anyway aku brsyukur yg aku tetap aku , biar gelap dan hodoh di luar ! tpi aku tahu yg hati ini tetap akan sama selamanya :p

soo ~
as the conclusion..
im who i am..
no matter what..
theres nothing can change me :D
notim more..
tata ~


p/s : still need u (:

CAMPING TIME !!!

iyup..thats what im gonna tell you all ! all about my memorable time during KARISMA CAMPING (: fiyuhh !!! tak adew laa istilah mnyesal time aku smpai kt cner..almost evrytim teramat sngt menghepikn bgy aku..soo soo soo full of enjoyment ! hehe..tpi iyew laa kan, apew yg teramat sngat mnyeronokkn tuw laa tidak di story kan..iyew tak ??? soo..lets start time aku nk brtolak mse kt uma agy :p

pagi tuw memg aku bgn awl gilak..first time kowt after SPM bgn awal , ahak! erything aku daa pack mlm bfore nk pegi tuw , soo xder laa aku kalut kibut cam tsunami nk dtg..kn ??? smua ok jewp ,but then abah aku dtg n said :' abe..abah xleh nk ata nim ado kijo..naik bas deh ??? ' waaaaaaaa.. !!! (hati meraung kemarahan) memg mase tuw aku dh speechless cam nk bgy public speaking kt prhimpunan dpn 2 juta org jewp ! erghh ~ soo , demi camp pnye psal aku just naik bas and straight too karisma ! ~.~

afta briefing n soo on ! ktorg pon naik laa bas , then menuju kew destinasi camp yg diberi nama REDZWAN CHALET !!! (: apew laa pnye malang nseb aku ary tuw . mse kt ats bas aku pulak yg kne brdiri ! tak ckup sit laa..adoii.. nk tak nk , aku bantai jew duduk kt tepi driver bas tuw , sbb kt situ adew cam ruang kosong yg bleh laa muat tuk aku duduk brsila , fuhh ! memg time aku control abis laa ! hik3 at last .afta i whole hour journey aku n daa geng pon smpai laa kt tmpat yg pnuh ngn knangn tuw (: straigt to the room then afta that start laa xtvt yg brmcm aneka spnjg 3 hari 2 mlm aku kt situ (; sbut sal xtvt nim..a lot to much lau aku nk stori soo bfore aku nk start share detik trindah nim . here the list of our memorable do's thing ;

~abseiling
~one minute inspirational video
~flag presentation
~war cry
~contact agent
~canoeing
~war game

quite interesting right ??? i bet it soo (: memg lau aku k story sal smua above tuw ! smpai pgy xabis agy kowt , soo aku just nk story a few things jewp ! firstly , ehem3 ! ABSEILING ! haha , memg time niy aku pnye jantung pnye laa kencang gler brdnyut cam nk trkeluar jewp rsenye , iyew laa bngunan 20 kaki aku kne pnjat n then trun blik ! OMG ! save me please :D tpi time niy bside aku ase sparuh mati , time aku pon ase hepi gk sbb leh tgk my beloved one doing its jump , siap ngn record agy tau ! heheh (: not just that , canoeing pon best yg amat doe ! ase cam xnk jew kuar drik dlm kayak tuw , siap mintak extra time nk main lgy plak tuw :p others than that , there's also war game !!! fuhh , memg xtvt nim time untk aku meng'exploded kan ' kpale ! must think how to save an hostages with just 35 troops versus 200 enemy from lanunland !!! haha..seems quiet funny , but act its gonna make u felt just like a useless person , siyezly speaking (: but then its time for all of us to go home and officially end this 2011 KEX CAMPING

)':

otw bfore i went home ,
smpat kowt brgmbar with all of my beloved friends
including her (:
and thanks a lot to our beloved
teachers sis marina and captain ariffin
what a great camp u make for all of us..
thanks sincerely from me ZH !!!


p/s : a lot of sweet memory with her (:

I HATE U !!!

arghhh !!!
know what i really2 hate
in this world beside
an animal called
NYAMUK !

A FLU !!!

whaa..really2 hate this
u know !!!
im suffering rite now
and i couldn't sleep properly..
iskk :(
but i must sleep anyway rite..
soo..
gtg guys
bai.

p/s : still can't sleep :(

i'm back ! yeah (:

hye hye hye (:

long time no see rite..
hehe..
dats me if u all want to know..
lazy one to wrote sumtim..
ngee~
but anyway..
i want to start writing something..
from now on..
know why..???
bcz of somone dat soo sweet..
love that person soo damn much..
(:

okeh ! first thing first..aku nk share sumtim laa slame aku x meng'wrote' ppew nim..byk jgk bnde yg aku nk gtau..tpi yew laa..xkn yg personal un nk share jgk kowt..over doe..haha..act..aq nk stori sal al-kisah idop aku lps tamat nyew pnderitaan SPM yg tramat full ngn masam n pahit one !!! hehe..okeh !!! act skunk nim aku ngh kerje kt cafe..hebat tak ??? ahak..but dats d truth u know..yew laa..nk kta krje tuw best..opz laa xkn..soo..aku krje jz tuk release stress n my bored that soo freaking bad..hik3..bside dat..aku pon ngh amik kusus skunk..ENGLISH man..yeah !!! i can speak english now u know..soo proud of myself..evnthough its still broken :D

tuw jew kew ??? xlaa..adew agy kowt..aku unn nk stori gk nim sal diri aku skunk..bkn nk memuji..jz nk stori sal apew yg org len kta kt aku pnye personality skunk..full of komen PEDAS one !!! haha..
yeah !!! expecially sal rmbut aku..whaa..hepi tau x cbb first time lam idop aq dpt simpn rmbut pnjg cam niy..bkn nk memuji..tpi adew laa ckit gaya cam korea..agk2 hensem x ??? huhu..dh tuw..aku pon daa smakin krus kowt..memg sah lau aku msk contest lelaki plng slim..fuhh..gerenti juara !!! :p

well !!!
mebi tuw jew kowt aku nk share..
4 mean while..
iyew laa..
lau umo pnjg agy..
kjp jew agy aku wrote sumtim else..
hehe..
thats all guys..
bubbai.



p/s : love my life now (: